Often time, I get caught up on outcomes or fear of the unknown. I caught myself doing that today. It is so true that when you ask the universe for something, you eventually will receive it. I spent two years “rejecting” the very thing I had asked for. Why? Fear.. And in some ways absurd fear.

Today, I am grateful that I received Jack back into my life. What is unfolding is the most sweet and beautiful story of unconditional everything and with a great sense of ease. Friendship, acceptance, trust, holding space, consideration, and reciprocity. You hear the cliché about deserving a love that is calm and someone you feel safe with.  Many times I thought it was a myth but that ease does exist. The feeling that someone fully accepts you for who you are, look and feel. Maybe that is one of the lessons that Jack is here to teach me and maybe I am his soft spot to land.

A good friend brought up tonight about the possibility of this happening when we were younger and I said no because I wasn’t the person I am today. I didn’t like the person I was 20 yrs ago and we probably would have made a mess of things and ended up hating each other and I could never have any negative vibes between us.

If I could tell Jack anything tonight it would be thank you for being in my life, for showing me unconditional everything, respect, friendship and memories to last a lifetime. I love you…