I used to have this tradition to journal every New Year’s Eve to capture what happened in the year as well as my hopes and dreams for the upcoming one. Ironically this started the year that Jack came to my parents’ NYE party 28 years ago.  Over the years my NYE journaling waxed and waned depending on where I was in life.  This year I made it a point to re-read those journals and it would be amiss if I didn’t capture the year that will probably be the most defining one of my life.

2022. The year that I experienced the most personal and spiritual growth.  Last year on December 30^th, my uncle passed away.  I’ve blogged about him and the connection we had a few times. Although we have had our challenges, it was through him that my perspective transformed. I would also like to think that my time with him last year taught me about forgiveness and how at the end of it all everyone’s goal is to do right and make things right with the things that you have wronged.  It was an experience that took me out of my element completely. I think I also became softer in my approach to certain things.

Every experience that happened to me this past year was no coincidence and probably due to the winks of my uncle.  This year I recognized low vibration energy in people and how it didn’t serve me.  I started to surround myself with people whose energy I wanted around me.  Once I did that, things just manifested for me.  Jack came back into my life for a reason.  I spent most of my college career writing about Jack.  In retrospect, there has always been a connection between him and I.  Even back then he verbalized to me that he thinks I am too hard on myself.  30 years later in so many words he said the same thing.  I’m still not sure the reason why he is back in my life but I am open to finding out.  This time come hell or high water I am determined to hold space for this.

This year also manifested good people who completely had my back. Dottie, Lot and Mae.  They made me push the envelope where my hang ups and inhibitions were concerned, never once judging me. Each of them bringing a ray of excitement, encouragement and happiness to my life. I became more judicious about the things I allowed in my life and the things that I wouldn’t tolerate.

It is true what they say about time.  Only time can tell. We often spend so much time wondering about time. When will it be time etc.  The lesson I learned is that time is time. I often had to be reminded by these women how far I came in such little time. You must want change in order to change. Desire is a strong catalyst.  And so is faith.  I restored my faith. No matter how short or long the wait what’s meant for you will come in.  That you are in control of standing by your truth no matter what the other person is doing or thinking.  Once I learned that, I realized it will all be ok.

I believe that 2023 is going to be another amazing year.  Someone told me I am making space for more things to come into my life. You cannot bring in the new if you don’t release the old.  I end the year with the greatest of gratitude for the experiences and people that shared this year with me.  2023- let’s do this!